...he makes me feel out of control and out of my head. He is exhilarating and terrifying. I see and feel him everywhere, and I'm always grasping for equilibrium even when he's not there... I feel like I'm always falling in love, falling and falling and falling.

Megan McCafferty

Categorized in : Falling In Love Grasping Equilibrium

I never understood the point of being sad when I could choose to be happy

Megan McCafferty

choose-to-be-happy being-sad positivity

I know. It's shocking to think that the government would try to stick its nose in our ladyparts.

Megan McCafferty

government trying thinking

I almost can’t believe I’m going to make myself vulnerable to him again. But what is love but the most extreme and exquisite form of risk perception? I know that relationships don’t last. And yet, with him, the risk of not being with him is much worse than any other hurt I can imagine.

Megan McCafferty

what-is-love hurt believe

We're all people", he said simply. "It doesn't matter if you're two, thirty-two, or ninety-two. Everyone wants to be treated with respect. Everyone wants to feel like they matter in this world.

Megan McCafferty

two people world

furious flutter awakened hummingbird heart hello hello love

Megan McCafferty

hummingbirds hello heart

Faith is accepting what makes no sense, what we cannot prove, but know down deep in our souls is real.

Megan McCafferty

accepting real soul

I thought Marcus was going to be in my life forever. Then I thought I was wrong. Now he’s back. But this time I know what’s certain: Marcus will be gone again, and back again and again and again because nothing is permanent. Especially people. Strangers become friends. Friends become lovers. Lovers become strangers. Strangers become friends once more, and over and over. Tomorrow, next week, fifty years from now, I know I’ll get another one-word postcard from Marcus, because this one doesn’t have a period signifying the end of the sentence. Or the end of anything at all.

Megan McCafferty

love next-week years

Even with the best intentions, growing apart might just be an inevitable part of growing up.

Megan McCafferty

intention growing-up might

I just don't see the point in beating myself up. I think it's more productive to concentrate on being a better person right now than punishing myself for who I was in the past.

Megan McCafferty

better-person past thinking

What I envy most about you and everyone else heading back to school is the certainty of it all. You’ve got a prescribed set of requirements to guide you through the next few years. Focus your energy on the completion of those assignments and you’ll succeed. Guaranteed. Where’s my syllabus to guide me through life?

Megan McCafferty

envy years school

I'm not in love. It's a crush which is why it hurts. Crushes crush. Otherwise they'd be called awesomes. "I have an awesome on him.

Megan McCafferty

it-hurts crush hurt

It's human nay-cha...For me to sperminay-cha.

Megan McCafferty

humans

Humans find meaningfulness where none exists because we want to create a sense of order in this chaotic universe. It's called apophenia. (And it's also the reason people believe in God.)

Megan McCafferty

order believe people

I feel better when I am not around people. When I am alone, alone, alone.

Megan McCafferty

feel-better feels people

Fortunately for me, I'm still evolving into the person I'm supposed to be. And though they don't know it yet, and may not come to accept it, I'm done living by their protocols or anyone else's. I'm the only one who will take credit for my successes. And I'm the only one who will take the blame for my mistakes. From now on, I live for me.

Megan McCafferty

credit done mistake

Zen cuts straight through the Quidditch match in progress and almost gets taken down by a Beater hurling a Nerf quaffle right at his machopartes.

Megan McCafferty

progress cutting taken

And now, as I'm lying alone in my own bed, I keep thinking about writhing against him last night, naked and vulnerable. Even after we'd both risen and fallen, peaked and plummeted, even after Marcus was physically shrinking from inside me, I couldn't stop clutching, crying, trying. Trying to pull him deeper, deeper, deeper within. Trying to make him more a part of me than I am myself.

Megan McCafferty

night lying thinking

Where's my syllabus to guide me through life?

Megan McCafferty

syllabus guide-me guides

You called me a natural con artist and asked me what other secrets I was hiding. I didn't answer because I already knew, in some deep, primal way, what furtive truth you were referring to: That I was destined to fall in love with you.

Megan McCafferty

falling-in-love artist love-you

I'm in crisis. I'm about to bump with a five-foot chino-chicano.

Megan McCafferty

crisis feet bumps